I am recently learning that there's life after heartache. It is hard. I hate it. But there is life. These are some Lyrics to songs that are helping with the heartache. Either through anger, love, hurt, laughter...they are words that help. Words that I feel I can connect with....somehow.
These lines from Jann Ardens song Insensitive are lines I can relate to:
How do you numb your skin
After the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood
After the body rush
How do you free your soul
After you’ve found a friend
How do you teach your heart
It’s a crime to fall in love again
Oh, you probably won’t remember me
It’s probably ancient history
I’m one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I’m out of vogue, I’m out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I hear these lyrics, and I wonder how everything could have changed so quickly. Why he doesn't love me anymore. Why one day, these words could be so true, and the next, they mean nothing at all. Allison Krauss' song "you say it best":
it’s amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don’t say a thing
The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There’s a truth in your eyes sayin’ you’ll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you’ll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all
Love is so confusing, and has so many emotions. I wish i had someone to catch me right now.
This song helped me get over my ex-fiance. Someone I didn't love as I loved the man who just broke my heart. And, while it helped that first relationship, I don't think it has and bearing on this one. Because i'm not sure that missing "the dance" is better than dealing with the pain. I want him in my life so bad, and hearing him speak about the other girl, i just don't know. I want him to love me. I want him to want to be with me. I want to hear him say he loves me. Garth Brooks, The Dance.
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
I would have changed so much. I would have changed everything. I wouldn't have taken our time for granted. I'd have told you while you were here all my fears. Everything i wanted. I would have told you. But somehow, i don't think it would have mattered.
I could listen to songs all day and find some deep meaning in them. I just wish this feeling of complete emptiness would go away. I miss being loved. Not just loved, loved by him.
Unloved. By Jann Arden.
There will be no consolation prize
this time the bone is broken clean
no baptism, no reprise and no sweet taste
of victory. All the stars have fallen
from the sky
and everything else in between
satelites have closed their eyes, the moon
has gone to sleep unloved....unloved....unloved....unloved
here I am inside a hotel choking on a
million words I've said
cigarettes have burned a hole and dreams are
drunk and penniless
here I am inside my fathers arms
all jagged-bone and whiskey-dry
whisper to me sweetly now and tell me I will
never die unloved....unloved....unloved....unloved
here I am an empty hallway
broken window, rainy night
I am nineteen sixty-two and I am ready
for a fight people crying hallelujah
while the bullet leaves the gun
people falling, falling, falling and I don't know
where they're falling from
are they unloved....unloved....unloved....unloved
hoping that the kindness will lead us
past the blindness and
not another living soul will ever have to feel
unloved....unloved....unloved....unloved
unloved....unloved
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
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